To Jessica
Posted: 11 Jun 2015, 11:25
When I wrote this, my twelve year old daughter had died not too long before. I was in a state of turmoil andmy drunken mind was a mess. Obviously.
Don?t turn me away when we meet again,
Don?t make me feel we never knew each other.
Hold me like you did when I was your father, because I still am.
I want to know you as you were,
All smiles and giggles and pouts.
I want you to ask me how and why,
I just want to be your dad again.
I don?t want you to be all knowing and wise, I want to see the wonder in
your eyes.
I want to hear your plans and dreams and share them.
I sit in your room and remember your smile.
I touch your clothes and favourite things.
They must mean as much to you now as they did then.
You felt only love so that couldn?t change by going.
I see our faces here now. We have grown old and we are lost.
Don?t turn me away when we meet again,
Don?t make me feel we never knew each other.
Hold me like you did when I was your father, because I still am.
I want to know you as you were,
All smiles and giggles and pouts.
I want you to ask me how and why,
I just want to be your dad again.
I don?t want you to be all knowing and wise, I want to see the wonder in
your eyes.
I want to hear your plans and dreams and share them.
I sit in your room and remember your smile.
I touch your clothes and favourite things.
They must mean as much to you now as they did then.
You felt only love so that couldn?t change by going.
I see our faces here now. We have grown old and we are lost.