L.O.V.E. ....Cupid's Choke Hold (What does it mean to you?)

Tracey Neal · Post by **Tracey Neal** » 01 Apr 2008, 16:15

awelker wrote:yea and i am going to be pretty much non stop for the next ten since my photography profolio is due on the 10th and i haven't started printing yet. lots of late nights and early mornings in the future.

Good luck with your photography profolio Alli

Hopefully the days go by pretty fast for you!!

sleepydumpling · Post by **sleepydumpling** » 02 Apr 2008, 04:23

Star wrote:
sleepydumpling wrote:
KaeMartyndale wrote: It is, indeed. Sometimes I get tired of the constant challenge, though!
I'm not bothered about the challenges per se, it's the challenges that turn into trials!

As for choosing who you love... part of me right now, because I'm in a very bruised spot, wants to go "I'd LOVE to choose who I loved, because then I wouldn't love a man who is too afraid to admit he loves me in return." but then the truth is... I love him and he's a beautiful person and I wouldn't take that away for anything.

You're beautiful! The fact your hurting and can still respect and give so much love to him, I just think thats amazing! I'm going to try really hard to let go, I never had hold to begin with..I think what hurts so much to me is I'm one who loves to give..I expected very little in return...I'm really too easy to please I think, and I feel I got used terribly..its caused fear in me, this hurt so bad...no way do I want it to happen again. Plus I'm just finding out things about him I didn't see...its sad to say the least. But your in my thoughts Sleepy dumpling

Aww thank you Star! Lately I've begun to see my own value. It's a good thing when it happens.

If I didn't respect E, I wouldn't be able to love him. It's as simple as that. And while he can't/won't be what I want him to be, who he IS is a beautiful person. I choose good when I fall in love, LOL!

Tracey Neal · Post by **Tracey Neal** » 02 Apr 2008, 06:41

sleepydumpling wrote:
Star wrote:
sleepydumpling wrote: I'm not bothered about the challenges per se, it's the challenges that turn into trials!

As for choosing who you love... part of me right now, because I'm in a very bruised spot, wants to go "I'd LOVE to choose who I loved, because then I wouldn't love a man who is too afraid to admit he loves me in return." but then the truth is... I love him and he's a beautiful person and I wouldn't take that away for anything.

You're beautiful! The fact your hurting and can still respect and give so much love to him, I just think thats amazing! I'm going to try really hard to let go, I never had hold to begin with..I think what hurts so much to me is I'm one who loves to give..I expected very little in return...I'm really too easy to please I think, and I feel I got used terribly..its caused fear in me, this hurt so bad...no way do I want it to happen again. Plus I'm just finding out things about him I didn't see...its sad to say the least. But your in my thoughts Sleepy dumpling
Aww thank you Star! Lately I've begun to see my own value. It's a good thing when it happens.

If I didn't respect E, I wouldn't be able to love him. It's as simple as that. And while he can't/won't be what I want him to be, who he IS is a beautiful person. I choose good when I fall in love, LOL!

I did too! My ex is still my best bud!! I tell him everything, I look up to him, he is so smart, I don't want to change him either, he is beautiful! But we are just friends..like I said his my best friend

Hamlet · Post by **Hamlet** » 03 Apr 2008, 16:11

my ex is pregnant with my ex's buddies baby, they're getting married.

i really loved her. this is a blow to the stomach. i'm a little bummed now, i guess i need to let go and move on. thing is i really loved her. but i need to admit to myself she's gone.

awelker · Post by **awelker** » 03 Apr 2008, 16:27

aww ham im so sorry to hear that. that totally sucks. i

hope everything works out in the end for you.

dejona84 · Post by **dejona84** » 03 Apr 2008, 16:29

I am friends with only one of my ex's from like Middle School. (not even serious relationship). He is pretty cool with my Husband, was in my wedding party.

dejona84 · Post by **dejona84** » 03 Apr 2008, 16:29

Hamlet wrote:my ex is pregnant with my ex's buddies baby, they're getting married. i really loved her. this is a blow to the stomach. i'm a little bummed now, i guess i need to let go and move on. thing is i really loved her. but i need to admit to myself she's gone.

I am sorry to hear that as well.

Hamlet · Post by **Hamlet** » 03 Apr 2008, 16:42

thanks so much you alli and dejona

awelker · Post by **awelker** » 03 Apr 2008, 18:29

yea no problem. its what i am here for, a shoulder to cry on when needed

Hamlet · Post by **Hamlet** » 03 Apr 2008, 19:16

well i feel like crying, i'm in my early 20's but i'm ready for a serious relationship, i don't know lol i'm not good jumping around. i prefer steady, she was my best friend, so i lost everything. but i'm done talking about her. she left me, and ran off with my friend. sorry for the depressing talk.

knightss · Post by **knightss** » 03 Apr 2008, 19:34

i've been in that exact situation. things will get better =)

dejona84 · Post by **dejona84** » 03 Apr 2008, 20:50

Hamlet wrote:well i feel like crying, i'm in my early 20's but i'm ready for a serious relationship, i don't know lol i'm not good jumping around. i prefer steady, she was my best friend, so i lost everything. but i'm done talking about her. she left me, and ran off with my friend. sorry for the depressing talk.

We are hear for you. This may not help, but it is very true. It is when you stop looking that you find the one.

awelker · Post by **awelker** » 03 Apr 2008, 21:08

dejona84 wrote:It is when you stop looking that you find the one.

that is so true. I was getting ready to give up on relationships about a month ago. i was never in a serious relationship, hell i never had a boyfriend and now....i couldn't be happier.

Hamlet · Post by **Hamlet** » 03 Apr 2008, 21:20

well thanks so much to all of you! i appreciate your kind words of encouragement

i'll be ok, one thing that makes me feel good is that i walk away with a clear conscious. i'm not saying this because i'm bitter either but i'm a firm believer in what comes around goes around, the way you treat others that sort of thing. i don't know i guess its hard for some people to recognize their wrongs, especially when they feel no pain themselves or have remorse.

CollegeReader · Post by **CollegeReader** » 04 Apr 2008, 00:04

Oh man, this whole thread is so depressing

And that is why it is perfect for me right now! lol I had been with my bf since I was 15 and he just broke up with me about a month ago (I'm almost 22 now). He was my best friend and I can totally relate to not being able to admit to yourself that the person you love is out of your life for good. I do believe that everything happens for a reason, though, so if something's not meant to be, you just gotta move on ... and I am desperately trying to embrace the single life! Except for the fact that I have no idea how to date, haha!

But it's been nice reading everyone's posts ... 'cause it reminds me that everyone gets a broken heart sometime in their life, but things will look up eventually