Owned by the Ghost of You
Posted: 18 May 2023, 15:27
I wrote this today! It's fiction, but it came to me, so I jotted it down. Let me know what you think!
To the one who never loved me
When I was a boy,
You said I wasn't good enough
And, when I was a baby,
You said I cried too much
And, when you died,
I said to myself
Damn
Now I can't show you who I really am
I use to dream you'd come back
But in time
That dream turned into a nightmare
When I think of it now
I shudder in fear at the thought
You might actually be there
And, with gratitude, I'm relieved that you're not
To the one I loved so much
You said I never loved you enough
The first time I caught you
You said it wouldn't happen again
Then it took a couple more times
Before you left me for them
When you left me,
You left me with your ghost
That's the thing about being alone
It's then that you're often most crowded by demons
I use to dream that you'd come back
And everything would be okay
But in time
That dream turned into a nightmare
When I think of it now
I shudder in fear at the thought
You might actually be there
And, with gratitude, I'm relieved that you're not
To the one who never loved me
When I was a boy,
You said I wasn't good enough
And, when I was a baby,
You said I cried too much
And, when you died,
I said to myself
Damn
Now I can't show you who I really am
I use to dream you'd come back
But in time
That dream turned into a nightmare
When I think of it now
I shudder in fear at the thought
You might actually be there
And, with gratitude, I'm relieved that you're not
To the one I loved so much
You said I never loved you enough
The first time I caught you
You said it wouldn't happen again
Then it took a couple more times
Before you left me for them
When you left me,
You left me with your ghost
That's the thing about being alone
It's then that you're often most crowded by demons
I use to dream that you'd come back
And everything would be okay
But in time
That dream turned into a nightmare
When I think of it now
I shudder in fear at the thought
You might actually be there
And, with gratitude, I'm relieved that you're not